Sorry..... I'm a lil' late!!! Oops!!

A dear friend has been asking me why haven't I put on a blog from so long.... I never replied properly.... just said,"nothing to write". Well today, I guess, I have something to write.
This time writing only for you!!

Yeah, first of all a very Happy B'day, boy!!

So, from where shall I start?? Okay let's recall everything.... vese I am not very good with memories like you but I will surely try!  Okay, started from formal Hellos and Hi's.... Time has actually been running na? We have come so far.... so very far.... you have been really great and I am very happy that I got a friend like you... so first thanks goes to Miss Sugandha for introducing us and the second thanks goes to Miss Tanmaya. I guess it is because of them both that we could become such good friends in this short time.


If somebody asks me who is this guy?? Well i guess, I do have to say that he is somebody very pure at heart. A guy with emotions, who will go to any extent for his friends. Friendship means the world to him  and friends like stars who will never fade away from his life. He is somebody who is capable of bringing a smile on anybody's face under any given circumstances.. So far what I have come to conclude of him, is that he is the soul and strength of his friends and family. And there is nothing he would not do for those who loves him. He is unique, one of his own kind! As your sister would say, A gem hard to find. I.... actually we all are happy and lucky to have you. You are a great guy who is sometimes super cute, sometimes naughty, sometimes smart n intelligent, caring always, responsible.... good writer or rapper..... dude release a song please!!! Extremely innocent and sweet and not to forget affectionate. Thank you for being my friend and I have no damn intentions on losing a friend like you. Keep that in mind.

Ah, really you have been so good, so great and always filling the air with your humor, not so funny jokes and doing all stupid things, just to make everybody smile!! You never take credit but you are doing a very great job. We all are proud of you.... I can write more.... but then I am thinking, if I write a lil more wouldn't it make you extra happy??!! Just kidding! Keep on smiling... and be like what you were and what you are... you are great in whatever you do. I like it very much.... when I recall that day when we studied "DCLD" we should often study like that!!


I guess that's all for now.... ab kya book likh du tujh pe??!! 
Keep smiling and be Happy!! 


Happy B'day!!

DILEMMA...........

Don’t you cry no more……..

My life is running on a different platform, isolated from all the rest of the people loaded with its own worries, some happy moments and a cluster of unsaid emotions. Opportunities come with a price…… and that price may be in any form, not always necessarily be sacrifice! It’s not unusual that I have thousands of complaints in my mind regarding my life, but what else can I do…. It is the only option that I have. However I have one more complaint with my life now…….. It is a new addition to the entire not so important list of complaints.

May be it is just me but I do not know many things; things that are important, things that may even sound silly to others, things that might mean something else to others………  and I have no idea how to understand several things in my life. How much one may pretend but it is the fact that one cannot keep on running from something for ever. Honestly, I really have no clue of why am I writing but I am writing because there is a storm inside of me right now which I want to let out somehow and writing is the best way to do it. I do not want to raise a million questions in people’s hearts and minds and I am not even planning to answer any of them but I am sure after anybody reads it there will be several doubts.

Not to worry…… may be I am fine….. Sometimes I over react, and it is one those time! There is something on my mind right now that makes me want to cry, cry bitterly…….. And I will. Something is pinching my heart like a needle that hurts so badly. I know it is not such a big issue but it is Hell of a Deal for me!! I know, I never talk clearly, I create doubts in people’s minds by my words but I love doing it.

God loves playing games with me and my feelings and it is his favorite game and I do not blame him. After all, we all are the puppets in his world and puppets are meant to be ruled and controlled. Sometimes I forget that my life is not solely mine, it is his creation, and he can give it any path he wants me to chase and any hurdle he wants me to tackle! I am not brave enough, I am still learning the tactics, and the ways that help me get through some situations. Somebody else’s faith boosts me up and it makes me wonder that I am really good for nothing. I definitely can’t be any body’s support and shadow……… when I have no clue of what is going on in their lives. I may not ask every time but that does not mean that I do not want to know.

Okay before I blab, I think it is the high time that I stop this very moment……… I know, I wrote too long and might even be confusing and beyond any understanding………… I am ……….. I won’t say no more.

My heart aches……. My eyes are wet!!!

God, I know we do not have that kind of thing but you do make some of my wishes come true……. I really wish that things get alright soon…………. A very wise lady reminded me today “ Life is not a bed of Roses. “, she is right. Thorns are the part of our lives but there are roses too right?…… And I wish that the smell of those roses spread into their lives for long. I am not very self less but please make this wish come true and I have my fingers crossed hoping for something better to happen……..

May be it is all crap but I just spoke half of my mind, rest there is still some conflicts.

SURPRISE SURPRISE !!!!!

You guys might be wondering what a wierd title....... well I am writing this post especially to thank my sweetest friends who are really sweet like cherries on Chocolate cake!!!! 

Hmm, so 22nd and 28th of January, 2014........ must say that I will definitely not forget these days, However it was really un-necessary but anyways........ A Big Big Thankssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss for giving me a surprise for my B'day!

And the gifts.......... were fabulous, I loved the cards especially the one by Vinnie( Really girl, it is amazing. You did all that for me......  Thank you! ) and the pendent...... Thank you Sugandha.... nice choice...... and Tanmaya now I can wear the one that you gave me.... too!

The photo edit...... my goodness............... its damn funny but now I finally have  apic of all of us together...... with such a sweet message written on it, Thank you..............

Now coming to the rest...... I loved the TEDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 YAY!! My first Teddy....... wow!!! Thank you guys............. its so cute and soft!!!!! But guys help me with the name!

Last but not the least..........  A  DIARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Hope the spellings are correct) 
Now I can write my favorite songs in it!!!

So.............................. ARIGATO...... All of you. I love you all!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. The Chocolate cake was Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!

Two Friends.............

Well long time..... hah?! Um, ok so let me start, so here I go.........

Today I am writing for somebody who has been in my life from 5 or so years..... and has been really a different person and special to me..... someone who helped me change into somebody better. Somebody who literally showed me the true meaning of friendship and the word "best friend". 

Words fall less when it comes to me to say something about this person, my friend, a sister, a gentle and kind hearted, silly, sometimes mean....... but that makes me happy as she is mean for my sake, her laughter....... girl know it I am a big fan........... and her sweetness.

Our thoughts still match.......... that makes me feel happy, Yay! Like I said I do not have much to put into words but I just wanna say that I love you.......................... and we will always be friends. 

For you my love, Miss Deepanshi Bansal, I love you.

“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”

It is actually surprising that despite the ups and downs, all the misunderstandings, hatredness, stupidness, and not to forget the other people............. despite of thousands of reasons we still managed to find that one reason to hold onto each other and decided to stick to each other for our lifetime. I can never forget that day when you told me that you had lied to me the first day we talked just because you wanted to be my friend............. I love you for all the things you have done for me obviously, the good but if we hadn't had the hard times then I do not really think that we would have been able to understand each other better and become what we are and what we mean to each other. 

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.” 

To The Friendship.........

Found this worth reading...........

So here's to the Friendship, that will grow deeper and stronger every single day and to the Friends, that will always be in my life. Let me tell them one thing, they are stuck with me for the lifetime!


“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

Especially for someone closer to my heart!

That's So Random !!!

“Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.”

Today I am just writing for shushing the voices in my head. 

We live daily, experience various things in our day to day hasty lives. It usually happens that things may not happen as they should or rather the way we expect. Life always flabbergast us with the twists and turns it takes. Friends.... are the best medicine a person can have especially a teenager. However, it often happens that they too go through some ups and downs, some misunderstandings, some wrong judgement. 

" Why Always Me ?" This is the question that comes first to everybody's mind, but let me shed some light on this part......  Friendship Demands SACRIFICE, People and even Life.... will give you a million reasons to let go of people but if you really want that one person in your life then despite the reasons you gotta find just one good reason to hold onto that person. 

It may also happen that the other person is at fault not you but you know....... they say, You are not getting any younger if you are the one apologizing.  Sometimes you gotta take a chance and give a new life to your friendship. I know its a lot easier said than done but I am saying all these out of experience and just trying to amend my mistakes that I did in my past. Sometimes its worth taking a chance that to sit idle and do nothing expecting others to take the initiative. 

P.S. : I MAY HAVE WRITTEN WITH SOMETHING ELSE IN MY MIND BUT WROTE THIS INSTEAD! 

REST......... YOUR LIFE, YOUR CHOICE! Who am I to say anything?!

The Unsaid Emotions

Relation. This word in itself has got a deep meaning to it. However it is kind of strange that we keep learning more and more of this word till our last breath. Relations never die, only people do. When we live we live several relations, one such is the relation of siblings.

The relation of siblings is yet unexplained, they fight, they literally fight, and it is damn true that they can not live without each other. If you are a single child trust me you have certainly missed living the most beautiful relation, a relation you can never forget and obviously you wouldn't even dare or want to. The emotions, the feelings, the secrets, are unsaid. It is something that can not be explained in words, for words aren't enough. Being with someone younger that you makes you feel wiser and caring and being with someone elder makes you feel young as if you are still a kid, far away from the worries of the world, the roller coaster life. You feel being cared. The relation that's out of this world is the relation of siblings.

" I HATE YOU !! ", These are the first words that I utter whenever I indulge in a fight with my brother. It happens all the time and I am pretty sure that it is gonna continue till the time we are living together. He has got a name but that wasn't enough for me...... so I have given him some very very good names 😉

 When it comes to praise somebody especially someone important in my life, I am always short on words. I never find the right words, but I know one day I will find the words and they'd be right! 
Whatever I say and whatever I do, in the end I know that I can not live without my two very imaginative, creative, idiot brother and sister. Oh, they make me laugh, sometimes cry but that's the best part of this relation. My mother always keeps wondering " What are they up to now, if they are sitting together quietly ?" I will say in praise of we three kids of our parents that WE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I never ever have said that how much I care and love them two but I know that they know. You need not express your feelings, your emotions, your cries they just happen to know! The credit goes to the telepathy, of course!
But yes, you cannot live without sharing and its not food that I am talking about!

I love the time that I spend with my siblings and the laughter we share. Those moments are precious and priceless. 

I just love them!!! However and Whatever they are.